Yep, I so almost lost it. I have another funeral to attend tomorrow. I’m so sad right now & trying so hard to suppress how I’m feeling. This guy I’ve known since he was 5 yrs old & played recreational baseball with my brother up until middle school has recently died. He committed suicide & no one knows why. I know one thing, I kindd of feel bad because I never tried to talk to him while were facebook friends & I know whatever he went through in his mind. I went through it before. I never told anyone & if I would’ve gone through with it, no one would even know why. I would’ve missed out on so many blessings. Anyway, it’s not about how he died, it’s the fact that he’s gone. It’s shocking. They held a Memorial at his Highschool’s baseball field & even FAMU’s baseball field. He impacted the lives of many people & a lot of people cared & he probably never knew it. It is so important to let people know you care, no matter what, you never know how it might touch someone. People are here today and gone tomorrow. This is so freakin sad. I went to view his boy with my fam, minus my brother because he’s at school in VA. It was like a mini reunion though. We all met at the park & our son’s/siblings/etc played baseball together & we just talked about how much everyone has grown & they plan on having a cookout so everyone can meet up & I suppose catch up this summer when everyone’s back from school & I think that’s nice. I was like apart of the team too because I was always around. I love those people no matter the age difference or how close we were. We still share the bond from that park & that’s all that matters. I love them all. I even care about him even though he never knew, but the fact that his death is affecting me emotionally shows that I care. I hope his family is doing ok.