Ok….sooo in response to my last blog about the guy…I finally told him I liked him or whatever & I found out he liked me too but he feels I’m on a whole nother level or whatever & he has nothing to offer me so he’s not tryna talk to me like that. I’m like ok whatever; his loss. yea, he’s younger, but I don’t even ask people my age or older for anything sooo Idk about that whole offering me anything, but whatever, it’s a reason why I don’t like people younger than me anyway. I kinda think I only liked him because of issues with Navy guy & I was talking to him too much & of course that whole stuff that happened with us didn’t help much either…sex complicates everything no matter what; at least for me it does. I was kind of mad because it’s like he just stopped talking to me before that whole revelation thing…like the whole time I swear I was like what did I do? I should’ve been like what I shouldnt have done because it’s all kinds of bad, but he practically proved to me he ain’t shit either, because the whole being cool thing wouldnt be an issue right now if he hadnt just blatantly stopped talking to me; YOU DO NOT DO THAT TO A FEMALE…he says he did it so he wouldnt like me too much; bullshit, u don’t do that; point blank period…I had an asthma attack early sunday morning & he text me sunday asking me about it (im like stop stalkin my fb statuses geez)…I kinda got rude with him or whatever & brushed him off real fast; then later when I knew he was off work I basically apologized then told him I wasn’t talking to him anymore & he was like he don’t see why we can’t be cool & that he never said that he didnt want to talk to me anymore…bottom line; he’s a mistake & I’m done completely…one thing I’m good at is erasing people. if he wouldve been straight up & hadnt just avoided me all of a sudden then fine, but no, he acted like the little BOY that he is…I could bash him on so many levels but that would be hypocritical of me because I did like him or whatever, he was kind of nice & stuff, but he’s so not all that to be carrying on over & it wasn’t that serious…I just don’t like being dissed when everyone knows I’m bomb…that’s like insulting; so fuck him. I mean I can’t help it that I’m older & ahead of the game & model & get attention from people on a ridiculous level, but I’m actually a grounded person that’s why I was able to have a boyfriend & be in a long distance relationship & ignore the BS guys would throw my way because he said the exact same thing he said; that’s why it was like Dejavu to me & I’m so over it. I just had to vent that out again…I vented to my bestie Dominique about everything I’ve kept bottled up; that this lil issue triggered & I included this too & I mistakenly messaged it to him; that sucked but oh well…Dominique is the best. I feel so much better. I’m fabulous, have a lot going for myself, & guys really don’t matter like that because they’re there; just no good ones except my navy guy. I love him no matter what & one day we’re gonna get it together & act like a true couple…we have like 4 yrs to straighten up. I sense it’s coming.

OK soooo enough about that Boy (like I said before; it’s his loss because who knows…), I’m gonna end up with my hair cut saturday & I have to be at the Blackout party at the utopia lounge sunday to debut the cut for the stylist (it’s a hairstylist event)…I hope she don’t chop me up but I know it will be the BOMB!…I get fitted for this Dec. 9th event Friday. I missed the last one so I have to do this one. it’s at 1 & only takes 15 mins. then it’s off to work. I’m excited. I need to make sure my boss knows about my availability changes like tomorrow before the schedule is made wednesday. I also have a designer that contacted me & wants me to do the photoshoot for her line at her launch party/birthday party dec. 19th. I feel honored because she contacted me & there’s also a boutique that wants me to do a fashion show in december. sooo december’s gonna be cool, so busy, good networking & resume builder. CAR SHOPPING is coming up…I cant wait…the Mazda 3 or 6 or cobalt, or hyundai, sentra, or pt cruiser is in question as of now…